A Lucid Episode, I Deviate From My Agenda ~ Choosing My Dream Words ~ A Non-Lucid Dream, Pacing My Evolution, A New Beginning

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Yesterday morning, around 3:30, I awoke from a lucid dream  in which I remembered my LD agenda, but used different words in my “mantra.” I said aloud a couple of times, “I want to communicate with my greater consciousness.”  The dream did not last long after that, and it did not yield any results.  Again here, I did not follow my agenda to the letter; allowing for spontaneous deviations.  I actually had another brief instance of lucidity later in the morning after this as well, but, I do not remember the detail of it now.  Technically, it was multiple lucidity, but as I mentioned in my last entry, I have been a bit lax with taking notes right after the experience, so there’s a tendency for me to lose a lot with ML.  But, I intend to put an end to this now, and focus/discipline myself more.

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 In one of my recent spontaneous deviations, I used the word “speak” instead of “communicate,” and in retrospect, I think perhaps this is a good substitution.  One might say that it does not make much difference what words you use, but when you are in a dream and you are lucid, you will find that words are very powerful, and the slightest variation in your choice of words can make a world of difference.  For instance, “speak” implies an open air verbal exchange between you and the person you are communicating with, while “communicate” implies a more general exchange of information that could take any number of forms.  It could be the writing on a wall, or a voice in your head, or a message could be communicated to you by the action of a dream character or a change in the dream itself. To “speak” is just one way to communication.  As I am typing this, I realize that sticking with the word “communicate” would probably be best in my situation simply because it will leave the method of communication between “me” and my CUS open.  My CUS might communication with me in a way that I may not even suspect.  Perhaps it is best not to narrow the possibilities.  So, there you have it; “I want to communicate with my conscious unconscious self.”

This morning, around 6:31, I woke up from a very interesting dream.  I was not lucid, but I think it was directly related to my efforts to integrate my consciousness using my dream work.  The dream was short and simple; in it,

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I am riding up in an elevator.  There is a slide control that looks like a light dimmer switch.  With it, I can control the speed of the elevator.  I make the elevator go faster, but then it is a little too fast.  I slow it down and then make it go faster again, trying to get just the right speed… I notice that the elevator is going too fast again, and then before I can stop it, it goes right past the top floor without stopping and crashes out through the roof.  Now I seem to see everything in a slowed down speed.  The elevator, overshoots the roof by a few feet, then curves in the air and crashes down on its side. I am not thrown by this motion, as I now seem to be a point of awareness without a body.  And as the elevator is hurtled through the air, I can see outside through the door which now has window much like the sliding doors of a subway car.  Once the elevator hits the roof, I see that there are people walking about outside, and the perspective now seems to be from a street level, although “technically” I should have still been on the roof.  The dream ends momentarily.

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Notes:

This dream seems to reflect the idea that I am pretty much in control of rate at which I evolve; that, if I wish, I can slow down or accelerate my progress.  It may also reflect a fear going through this too fast, or getting ahead of myself; thus, the crashing through the ceiling.  But the elevator going beyond the boundaries of the building structure also represent the attainment of a new level that is beyond the confines of my old self.  The symbolism of being on the street level even though I was on the roof, suggests that while I have reached the top of the old level, I am only at the bottom or lowest part (street level) of the new plateau.  That new plateau may represent the conscious integration of my “conscious unconscious,” or inner self, or higher self, if you like.

Multiple Lucidity ~ Topsy-Turvy ~ Face To Face With my “Conscious Unconscoscious Self (CUS) ~ Fear Of The Inner Self ~ Non-Verbal Communication ~ Spirits at My Door ~ Physical Effects

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Yesterday morning around 4:54, I woke up from the last in a series of lucid dreams throughout the morning.  I call this Multiple Lucidity (ML).  I must have gone to sleep and woke up at least four times from lucid dreams.  Now, what happens—to me – with ML, is that I will not remember all the details of each lucid dream (especially if I don’t bother writing them down right after, which may or may not break the flow), except perhaps the last.  And in this case, that is ok, because my last episode of lucidity was somewhat of a whopper!

In the dream, it is night-time, and I am outdoors in some town.  I become lucid, and I begin to speak my mantra/request.  Now, I just want to say here that after my last lucid dream, I considered re-wording my “mantra” because of an encounter in that dream with a personage calling himself “Twylo” who, I believe, was a manifestation of my “higher self,” or my “partner” as he put it.   I mention this because in this last dream of dream of the ML set, I used the phrase, “I want to consciously communicate with my conscious unconscious.”  I repeated this a couple of times, then my body began to levitate off the ground, and assume a horizontal position.  I was feeling daring, and I let this motion continue, and at one point I actually “wheeled” into a full head stand.  I was actually “standing“ upside-down, although my head was not quite touching the ground.  I then checked my posture to be sure I was perfectly straight up and down.  ,  I continued the wheel  motion — still reciting my mantra — towards a horizontal position facing upward, the dream shifted, and all at once I was inside a very brightly lit room, although I could see through the arced windows that it was still night outside.  The room is small, and all painted white.  It may be polygonal, as if we are in a tower, but I do not turn around to take in its full scope.  There is a man standing in front of me.  He is Caucasian, slender build with a good height.  He has a close-cropped beard of dark hair.  His face seems to fluctuate somehow, though not in a way I can clearly discern or describe.  He has a very powerful presence.  It seems that this room is very high up at first, but as I look out a window, I see that we are not too far from ground level.  Now I seem to have a confused jumble of thoughts in my head.  Then the jumble becomes a clear voice for a moment.  I am trying to remember the name [Twylo] of the person that I encountered in my last lucid dream.  But I cannot quite recall it.  Now a voice inside my head, that does not seems to be my own, encourages me to remember, saying something like “fight!”  Then the man in front of me says out loud, very clearly, “I know all those dreams.”  I now become intimidated, apprehensive, fearful even. I answer him, “Why,” and then “Who are you?”  I begin to feel my consciousness withdrawing from the dream, as if backing away from my dream body… I awaken shortly.  The words, “I know all those dreams,” echo through my mind as I write them down, and roughly sketch an arched window in my notebook.

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There is one other dream from the ML episodes that I want to mention here.  And although I did not think of my dream agenda at all, it is never-the-less very interesting.  It is more like a projection dream actually.  When I become aware, I am walking from my living room into my kitchen.  I see that my front door (which is on the other side of the kitchen) is slightly ajar.  I am alarmed by this.  But I look behind me toward my bedroom (on the other side of my living room) and see that there are two guys at my window as if they are trying to get in.  For a moment, I am torn between addressing the window situation, or the open door situation.  I continue to my front door.  As I peer outside my front door, I am surprised—First of all, it seems that everything outside my door is in black and white, while everything within my apartment is in color.  Not only is it in black and white, the whole area outside my door seems to be hazy, as if it is part of another dimension or something.  And in that dimension, I see three figures standing near the wall across the hall way.  The diffuse monotones give them the appearance of ethereal beings or spirits, but I am not as shocked, or agitated by this as I might think I would be.  Somehow, I do not see them, or the fact that my door is open, as threatening.  And so I turn and go back toward my bedroom – without even closing the door… This episode ends shortly

The other dream of this ML experience where brief, and perhaps not significant as I recall.  But as I said earlier, I have already lost much of the details.  I only mention the projection dream because it stood out, and I think it has significance which I have not fully thought out yet.  Symbolically it may have to do with me reaching a point in my development where I have let down my barriers more, and am more open to non-ordinary perception.

Now, this first dream I mentioned here represents breakthrough of sorts.  I can only imagine that the man I spoke to was a manifestation of my “Higher self,” or my conscious unconscious.  But what was really revealing about my interaction with him was my fear.  This was something that I did not anticipate.  And one might ask the question here; why would you be fearful of your own self, or of something that is a part of you.  Well, all I can say to that is, Perhaps the only true fear that we really experience, is the fear of breaking out of our shells; the fear of facing our true power. 

I think I may have even mentioned very early on in this journal something to that effect.  I will have to back track now and see what that was in relation to.  But for now, I have been considering what I will do next.  I am definitely going to keep pursuing this line of exploration.  These last few lucid experiences have led me to believe that I need to reconsider the term, Higher Self, and so I will not use this term henceforth.  From now on, in my request/mantra, I will use the term, “my conscious/unconscious/self.”  This term insinuates more of a “complementary,” or “partnership” relationship.   Now, the next time I encounter my C/U/S, I am going to ask him just what he is.  What are you? What is your nature? And, what is the nature of our relationship?  I will also ask my C/U/S what his name is, and what is the name of our combined, whole, or integrated self.  But beyond this, I want to voice my intent for us to integrate once I have a more full understanding of our relationship. Even as I type those words, I can feel a tinge of that fear I mentioned earlier.  Integration is a big step.  But I am getting closer.  Even as I felt that initial fear during the dream when my CUS said to me, “I know all those dreams” I had the where-with-all to ask, “Why,” “who are you?”  Of course, I withdrew from the dream shortly thereafter, but next time I will be more ready, and deal with our interacting better.  The newness and uncanniness will not throw me for a loop.

Also, the second part of my dream agenda; to dream-link with my friend SK, is still in effect.

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One other curious detail I forgot to mention in connection with this last “CUS” dream is that when I woke up from it, I had the sensation that something had been was physically adjusted in my head/brain. That sounds a little spooky, but I actually felt it as a sensation; as if something were opened or released.  Perhaps it was some sort of synaptic connection, but I don’t know much about such things, so I will reserve from guessing.

A lucid Dream ~ Securing The Dream ~ My “Higher Self” Responds ~ Twylo ~ My Partner: Redefining My “Higher Self”

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I became lucid approaching the top of flight of stairs.  I debated whether I should continue up or go down.  I analyzed the symbolism involved, and decided to continue up.  [The upstairs, or top of a building for me represents the “higher “ functioning of being; the mental, as opposed to being in the basement of an edifice, which would represent the physical body, or sexual, or basic functioning.]  The staircase opens onto what seems to be the top floor of the building I am in.  It is a wide open space, sparsely furnished, but well done.  I know that there is something I want to do, but I cannot remember what it is.  I am a bit apprehensive now that I may lose my hold on the dream.   I begin walking through the open space, and I focus intently on the sensation of my feet hitting the wood floor so that I can secure myself within the dream.  Then I then begin to feel the repercussion of my feet hitting the floor too intensely; it becomes uncomfortable, even a bit painful.  I still try to remember my lucid dreaming intent, but I cannot.  Now I walk up to a wall (the walls btw, are a sienna color on top, and a teal color on the bottom) I decide to put my left hand through the wall.  I am hesitant at first, but then I think, there’s nothing to hurt me.  I push my fingers in.  I feel a weird sort of energy, and withdraw my hand. I remember now that I suggested to someone (while I was awake) that they perform this very act, but I don’t recall who it is.   I decide to try it again, this time I put my whole hand through, and again, I feel the energy.  When I take my hand out this time, I see that it has begun to take on the hue of the teal color on the wall.  Momentarily, the effect fades from my wrist out through to my fingertips.   I remember my intent for the lucid dream.  I start saying my mantra out loud.  “I want to consciously communicate with my higher self!” My words come out slightly awkward, almost as if I am speaking with a country accent; a twang.  I continue my mantra, and as I speak, a television on the other side of the large room/space comes on by itself.  I walk toward it thinking that this could be an answer to my mantra/request.  I see that there is a black man on the TV. The man seems to be laughing around and partying; not too serious.  He is wearing a funny looking squishy knitted hat, Rasta-like, there is a woman standing with him.  The signal is a bit shoddy.  The man now calls me by name.  I ask who he is.  He responds, “I’m your partner.  I ask him his name, and he says, “Twylo.” [My spelling]  I ask him again to be sure, and he says again, “Twylo…” The dream ends shortly after this.

Notes:

This dream is sort of a breakthrough in that I had communication with a manifestation of my “higher self.”  It is also interesting because my HS itself (Twylo) gave me a more precise definition of our relationship by referring to himself as my “partner.”  This goes beyond the idea of higher and lower self, and connotes a more equal or complementary relationship of working together.  The name “twylo” to me is obviously derivative of twilight.  Upon reflecting on this, one the first things that came to my mind were the runes Dagaz and Gebo.  The rune Dagaz, (an X shape with the sides closed off) represents the balance between light and dark, or conscious and unconscious, divine and human… twilight.  While the rune Gebo, which is just the X shape, represents partnership, and the gift of the divine.  In Ralph Blume’s book (which I referred back to after the dream) “The Rune Cards,” he describes the ultimate expression of the rune Gebo as the union of conscious/ego self with the higher self.  I was a bit blown away when I read this—a great confirmation!  I have been interested in runes for a few years now, and I seem to have an affinity for them.  After this dream, I decided to change my request/mantra to reflect the relationship with my “higher self” that was suggested to me by Twylo.  And so, after considering different alternatives, my mantra is now “I want to consciously communicate with my conscious/unconscious self (CUS).  I may or may not include the word consciously as it may be a bit redundant.

Another point that seems significant to me is that no more than a couple of days before having this dream, I had been rereading a chapter from Carlos Castaneda’s book, The Fire from Within (one of my favorites) titled “the Boost From The Earth.”  This chapter-which was not one of my favorites, but I had decided to reread anyway—deals with the Earth as a living “sentient” being, and how a warrior/sorcerer can use the awareness/energy of the Earth to transport himself into other realms of perception.  The specific technique used by the warrior had to be done precisely at twilight when the last rays of the sun disappeared from the eastern horizon. This tied in with Twylo also.

The person who I could not remember in the dream (the one who I suggested should put his hand through a wall) was my friend JF who works at a bar I got to.  I have been giving him and his girlfriend tips on lucid dreaming and astral projection for about four weeks now, and perhaps four or five days before this dream, I suggested that JF choose a task while he was awake that he would then perform in the dream once he became lucid.  The idea being that if you have a definite task to work on once lucid, it will help to stabilize the dream, or keep your consciousness focused in it so that you don’t wake up without meaning to.

Another thing that I decided I needed to reinforce was my intent to carry out the whole of my LD agenda, and not just the “higher self” part.  The second part of my agenda includes establishing a dream-link with my friend SK.  In general, I want to keep in mind all the little things I realized/learned through my previous attempts with my current agenda.  I.e., to stay in one place as I do my request/mantra, to be sure to feel the meaning of the words as I am saying them and not let them just become empty words, to maintain my focus/objective at every point as it is unfolding, and to not stop until I have completely finished my agenda, or made a conscious decision to end it early.

Earth Day Agenda ~ Communion ~ A Unnatural “Tsunami”

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On Friday night, after having decided to use my abilities to “commune” with the Earth for Earth Day, I had a dream where I was in perhaps some kind of hotel with others.  I am looking out the window, and I see what appears to be a huge and squat, standing column of water from the ocean/sea.  This cylindrical water formation doesn’t seem natural, and has something like a ring wave around its circumference close to the top of the column.  I will include a drawing here to show you more precisely what I am trying to describe.  Anyway, I am of course apprehensive about this, as I incredulously exclaim to the people around me; “My god, what is that?”  I say this couple of times.  There is one person among us who is calmer, and possibly has insight in to what is going on.  Anyway, the huge standing water column seems to be almost frozen in time, or moving very slowly, but it soon seems to be breaking, and ready to fall onto the land in a more natural wave formation.   After a while, it seems that the wave has crested, or has spent itself onto the land.  I see various areas of the seaside town, blanketed with shallow water. I awaken shortly.

Notes:

This was not a lucid dream, but I felt it was directly related to my intent to commune with, or listen to the Earth.

It seems that in this dream, I saw freeze-frames of this wave formation at various points of its appearance, and breaking.    

The cylindrical form of the wave with its ring formation near the top, reminded me somewhat of the movie Battle: Los Angeles where the cannons or pods are striking the sea and earth and the trail has a ring cloud around part of it. Only, the cylindrical form the water took was huge and wide.

I don’t know what this whole scene meant, but as I said earlier, I do feel it was part of my wanting to commune with the Earth.

levitating/Gliding Dreams ~ Showing Off ~ A Lucid Dream, I Repeat My Mantra ~ Earth Day, Communion

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 The following entry is transcribed in part from my hand written notes on the above date/time.

In the beginning of the dream, I am at what might be some kind of camp with youths.  We are outdoors. I am levitating and floating around.  My levitating inspires one of them to levitate too.  After levitating around a bit, I suggest that our group should enter some kind of competition, and be like “the best levitators” in that category.  Then I think that they will not let us enter the competition in a “levitating” category because people don’t believe that levitating is possible.  Then someone, a black man, appears to my left—almost out of nowhere—and says “no,” that is not true.

After a bit of showing-off with things I can do with my levitation (at one point I am levitating in a lotus position while spinning slowly on my axis), I move from one platform to another…  At one point I float to a low building top that seems to be painted white or silver.  Now, I begin to realize that I am dreaming.  I voice my realization out loud.  I am happy that I am finally here again (lucid in the dream state). The atmosphere now looks the way it does just before a rainstorm.  As I move about, I remember, and say out loud my intended phrase for the lucid dream, “I want to consciously communicate with my ‘higher self.’” I say it a few times aloud while gliding and floating.  I then realize that I am saying the word “speak” instead of “communicate.”  I correct this. I think to go inside the building that I am levitating above.  I do.  It seems like an empty garage or something; the interior seemingly made of concrete.  It is dark with the only light coming through the windows.  There are objects in various piles near the walls. It is empty in the center.  I go back out again, as there seems to be nothing interesting in the garage.  I continue saying my mantra for a while more, remembering to focus on the meaning of the words as I say them, but I don’t seem to get any results, and so I awaken shortly…   it is 4:50 in the morning.

Notes:

While I was happy to have attained lucidity again, as I clearly expressed in the dream; once again, I was somewhat disappointed that my efforts still did not readily produce results.  It seemed to me, and still does to a degree, that I have been focusing my lucid intent very specifically in this direction for a while now, and by now I should have naturally seen more obvious results.   The fact that I have not leads me to believe that something is amiss, either with my expectations or my approach.  Perhaps, I have been basing my lucid dreaming task on ideas or preconceptions that were somehow fundamentally flawed.  But somehow, I don’t think that this is the case.   I believe that there is definitely some unconscious part of us human beings that is knowledgeable on things that we are not consciously aware of.  As for the exact psychological structure of this part, or the subtleties its working relationship with our conscious minds/selves; this I cannot speak on with absolute certainty; but it none-the-less exists. It is there, and I believe that it is structured; organized through a psychological identity that is as valid as our “ego” identity.

This is actually the most cumulative time I have devoted to carrying out a particular lucid dreaming task ever.

I did not remember to continue to the second part of my second part of my LD agenda after completing, or deciding that I had spent enough time on the first part.  The second part, as I had mentioned in previous entries, is to establish a dream-link with my friend SK, whom I have not discussed my plan with.  I have begun to reinforce this intent during the day, and my intent to not move around as I repeat my “mantra” in the first part of my LD agenda.

Although I have not achieved the results I expected to get after devoting so much focus to my plan to communicate consciously with my “higher self,” I do feel that my focusing on the same thing each time I have become lucid these last few times is somehow solidifying my intent in the dream state/realm; that it is somehow building a momentum; that it is producing some kind of cumulative effect through which my goal will inevitably manifest.

I have already had another lucid dream experience about a week after this one I’ve just mentioned.  And this time I progressed a bit further.  It seems my “Higher Self” has offered another interpretation of the relationship we share.   I will detail the experience in my next entry.

Tomorrow, Friday, April 22,2011, is Earth Day.  One of the ideas I have been considering exploring is atuning myself psychically to the earth itself.  I have heard different opinions as to sentience of the Earth and/or other planetary bodies.  Some say that the Earth is a conscious living being, and others say that it is just an inanimate body orbiting the Sun.  I am inclined to believe that the truth is combination of both these theories.  I think that Earth is indelibly linked to the living breathing bodies that inhabit it.  I would even go so far as to say that we (human beings and other creatures) are a part of the “body” of the earth.  We are sort of an extension of the earth.  We as living beings are the consciousness of the Earth manifested; or, you could say “the conscious portion of the Earth.”  We are like its “feelers” in a sense.  The Earth is in us, and we are in the Earth, and together we make one whole living sentient being .  The Earth is an extension of my body, and vice versa.  And we are all connected through the body of the Earth.

Having said all that, I don’t think it would be too much of a stretch to think that we as human beings can extend our conscious awareness into the earth itself, just as we can become aware of our immediate physical bodies.  Now, since Earth day is upon us, I think this would be the perfect time to use my abilities to commune with the Earth and find out what is in store, and investigate our relationship with the Earth.  All this talk of Ascension waves/cycles, and “2012” has piqued my interest.  So for the next few days, I will focus any lucid dreams or obe’s on merging my consciousness with that of the earth.  I want to “hear” the earth speak, and perhaps say a few words myself.

A Lucid Dream/Projection ~ Remote Testing ~ My Mantra ~ Drawn By The Mirror

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This morning around 7:55 I woke up from a lucid dream in which I once again started speaking aloud my mantra.  I believe this dream was sort of a projection dream like the last one started out.  Anyway, in the beginning of the dream, I am sitting on my bed in yet another house where I spent some of my later teenage years in E. Elmhurst, NY.  It is the house, and yet it is not.  As I look across the hallway through my open bedroom door, I can see into my mother’s room.  It is empty, and it seems all the lights are on in the house, as everything is brightly lit. From where i sit. Her room seems a bit larger than it is in WL.  But this might be because it is empty of furniture.  I am suspicious of the environment.  There is a remote control device in my right hand.  I now take this and send it skittering across the floor from my bed room through the hallway into my mother’s room.  It hits the far wall.  i don’t know why exactly, but I am testing the environment.  I then fully realize that I am dreaming.  I get up and walk out of my room and towards my mother’s room.  her room is expanded and connected to other rooms that are not there in WL  As i walk in, I begin saying my mantra aloud; “I want to consciously communicate with my higher self”  As i say this, I instinctively raise my arms up into the air in a sort of supplication gesture.  It seems very natural and apropos at the time.  as I repeat the mantra, I find myself walking toward a large floor to ceiling wall mirror that does not exist in WL.  my first thought is to walk through the mirror as I continue my mantra. I weigh this idea in my mind, but as I get closer to the mirror, I feel an overwhelming impulse to  walk into(through) it.  This “impulse” is in fact so strong, that it is almost a tangible force.  It is like I am compelled.  I decide however to resist this uncanny impulse, and left turn just before I reach the mirror, and walk into an adjoining room/area which is also well lit and basically empty.  I focus on my mantra.  my audible voice is not full force, so I focus and make a point of enunciating all of the words very carefully.  I focus on their meaning as I am saying the words.  I continue speaking as I walk, halfway saying the words aloud, and halfway speaking them in my mind. “I want to consciously communicate with my higher self!”  I do not seem get any response from my mantra… I wake up shortly.

NOTES:

This dream, as I said, seemed to happen close to the waking state. it may have been dream projection (a etheric projection that is almost completely masked by subconscious dream elements) It almost felt like my becoming conscious and lucid when I did, was a fluke.  I remember reminding myself earlier in the morning during a brief period of wakefulness, to be aware when I was dreaming, or to let my mind wake up when my body went to sleep. [What you do during your brief periods of wakefulness is so very important)

Now, The thing with the remote control was interesting.  Before I became lucid, a part of me already knew that   something was afoot.  The motion of throwing the remote across the floor was very much like testing the safety of an area before you enter it; to be sure that it could support you, or that there was no '"invisible force field" that might hinder you.  I was somehow unconsciously testing the reality of the dream.  [it is interesting to see how we act on unconscious knowledge during the dream]  The possible symbolism of the remote control was fairly obvious.

The gesture of raising my arms above my head was totally spontaneous, and had an almost uncannyly natural feel about it.  I think here too, although I was now lucid, I also acted partially out of some unconscious knowledge/experience, or impulse.  But in retrospect, I kind of think that the gesture may have been too high fellootin/dramatic.  Although it did set the tone somewhat, I don’t want to end up making some kind of “idol of praise” or “worship” out of my own higher self, in that this might serve to further separate “me” from my “higher self” rather than integrate the two aspects, which is my ultimate goal.

As far as the mirror was concerned, I don’t ever remember feeling such an “impulse” like that before in a lucid dream or projection.  As I said, the closer I got to the mirror, the stronger the impulse became.  I think that part of the reason I did not follow through with the impulse was because the newness of that kind of feeling/experience was so uncanny, and I wanted to sort of bask for a while in its experience.  The impulse actually almost became a force that grew stronger as I resisted it.  I was also of the opinion that this impulse might be distracting me away from my clear-minded goal; to repeat my mantra until some kind of communication was made manifest.  I but just as I did not realize the symbolism of the train in my last lucid dream, I did not think at the time that I may have come upon the mirror as a result of my mantra, or that it may have been part of the unfolding of my request.  Although the mirror did not pop out of nowhere suddenly, as did the train dream, I did come upon it after walking about while chanting my mantra (in a room/s with no other furnishings to draw my attention — no less).

And so, in retrospect, I think the thing to do would have been to go through the mirror after “reflecting” on its possible symbolism.

Now, I don’t know it I mentioned this before in this journal, But I have had many experiences in the past with walking through dream mirrors.  The symbolism here is obvious as well;  When I walk through a mirror, I explore different parts of myself.  I go “inward” so to speak.  One might say here that the whole dream is “inward” anyway, but for me, walking through a mirror represents a more conscious and focused intense inward psychological probing than the “normal dream.”

And so, what I am taking with me from this dream is the idea that,  I should get into RTDI mode right after I go into my agenda, which in this case would be my mantra to “communicate consciously with my higher self.” After this point, anything that stands out to me in the dream should be interpreted in terms of how it relates to my goal.  “Is it part of the unfolding of my agenda/goal?” “Is this the dream responding to what I am putting out now?”  And if it is, then I must go further with whatever it is.  The dream response might not always be as obvious as “the whole dream changing into something else,” or a force that comes and pulls/pushes me away.  A dream response could be insinuated more subtly into the dream tapestry, although I have no doubt that it will always get your attention.  Be aware before you dismiss!

I Verbalize My Request/Mantra In A Lucid Dream ~ A Dream Transition ~ Strangers on A Train ~ I Use The “Pinky Technique” To See Energy

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Early this morning, around 4:30, I woke up from a very interesting lucid dream experience.  It actually started out more like a projection/dream experience, and then it transited into a full-blown dream which may have actually been a projection to another level of the Astral plane.  Anyway, I will now reconstruct the experience with the notes that I took after waking up.

In the beginning of the dream, I am in my apartment but it does not seem to be my physical apartment particularly.  It has the feel of an etheric projection mixed with dream elements, or what I am more inclined to believe are alternate reality elements.  A phone rings, and I pick up the receiver of a land-line, and a man’s voice is asking me something like, how could I choose “so-and-so” over him… I become lucid shortly, and I start walking about the apartment.  I remember my mantra/request that I want to consciously communicate with my Higher Self.  I begin repeating the mantra as I walk about the apartment.  I pass by a couple of mirrors as I continue saying the mantra both inwardly, and outwardly but nothing happens.

Then, all at once, the dream changes to a completely different dream… Now I am sitting on a train that has many people on it.   I am not lucid at first, but momentarily it dawns on me, “I am still dreaming!” Now , I start my mantra again, but with no result, but a few curious looks.  But then after a few repetitions, a black heavy-set woman appears from my right.  She comes right to me as if in response to my words. She is wearing a black dress.  Her attitude seems just a bit “haughty.”  I continue saying my mantra, and then the woman sits down to my right.  I ask her, “What/where is my higher self?”  She says something like, “Your’e here,” or It’s here already.”  Now, I lean back from her and point my left pinky at her, and say, “See energy!”  – Nothing happens.  I say it again, but still nothing happens.  I then begin to say my Mantra again, “I want to consciously communicate with my Higher Self…” A few people on the train seem curious, but nothing happens.  I note in particular a Mexican-looking guy. He is short and a bit stocky with Indian features.   He wears a cap, and a hoodie under a jacket.  It seems like an ordinary train car with passengers… almost.

Notes:

I was pleased with the way I stayed on top of things in this dream.  I kept my focus as I had intended to; not letting my goal slip away.  The transition to a whole new dream setting was interesting.  What I liked about it most was that I flowed with it, and didn’t black out or have a lapse in consciousness.  In the past, I’ve had experiences of the dream scene completely changing, but I would invariably feel that there was missing experience or consciousness in between.  My lucid orientation was momentarily lost this time, but I quickly regained it.  I also liked that I had the where-with-all to use the pinky technique to “see” energy when I encountered the woman on the train.

Now, this dream transition was interesting in itself.  In retrospect, I see that it was directly related to the request that I put out with my mantra.  I believe I mentioned earlier in this journal that a train and its passengers are for me a symbol of my “oversoul” with the passengers representing my various incarnations, and the conductor representing my oversoul identity.  A bus, driver, and passengers represent the same thing.  Although I was very focused during this dream, I did not consciously make the connection with the symbolism and my request, if I had, I would have probably moved to the front of the car and sought out the conductor/oversoul.

The cryptic words of the woman who sat down next to me indicated that I was already in the place that I wanted to be, or that what I was looking for was already there, and that I was not fully aware of my situation.  This gibes with the fact that I was on a train full of passengers, and I did not recognize the symbolism involved.  Although I have recently begun to make a distinction between the “Higher Self” and the”Soul,” the two are of course inextricably related; the Soul sort of “containing” the Higher Self.  The integration of the Ego/personality/waking consciousness with the Higher Self/sleeping dreaming consciousness is the fulfillment of the individual, or “incarnate” identity which is but one portion of the Soul Identity.  This of course is a framework for me, but based on my past experiences, I believe it is the one that most closely reflects the reality of the situation.

Based on this latest experience, I am going to impress the idea on my mind throughout the day that I must be aware of the significance any changes that occur, or new elements that enter the dream with regard to my objective.  How does this “developement” or “new element” relate to my objective?  I must keep this in mind even as I focus unwaveringly on carrying out my objective; which for now is to “consciously communicate with my higher self,” and once this is achieved, to establish a dream-link with SK in the nearest future time that he is dreaming.  I have already gone over the details of these plans in previous journal entries.

As a result of this latest experience, I will be incorporating, to a degree, the idea of Real-Time Dream interpretation (RTDI) that I mentioned earlier in this journal.  This involves interpreting the events of the dream as they unfold, or while the dream is going on.

Perhaps this changing of dream scene itself is the way my higher self is communicating with me.  Whatever the case, we shall soon see.